breaking good

Have an opportunity, maybe the proverbial "thee" opportunity, to break the usual pattern of self-defensive reaction to people...now. I usually respond very quickly to email, or questions, often with the underlying energy of defending myself and or my position...and always left empty and/or regretful. The backdrop is enormous...summed up as being around peers who hype how hard they work and or their unique sacrifice. Attention sought; attention received. I have a history of getting sucked into that vortex. It's lonely, unfruitful, defeating, depressing. So today, I enter the fray. I can continue the trend, or I can break tradition and share minimum necessary...need to know only...just the facts, limit my self exposure, be present by just sharing what is needed. In the color scheme of life, stay true to my color sight impairment and offer no color commentary. A peaceful option in the long run...though urges are evident. Best.